Sunday, really? Okay, I can blog on Sunday. Anyone remember what I did on Friday?

Just kidding, I remember! I hung out with myself and my pets, engaging in distracting, shallow activity and leaving most of my brain free for long, deep ruminations on a great multitude of things. Exactly what I’ve been doing a whole lot of all month, which is how I remember. It’s been quite fantastic, actually, I’m starting to feel relaxed, empowered and playful in a way that I haven’t for quite a while.

In addition to ongoing creative thinking about how I want to engage with my precious Treasures, I’m also enjoying giving other areas of my life the thorough shake out and freshen up. One particularly fun area to contemplate is my desire to make a significant and widespread intervention in the discourse on some topic that I care about. I don’t know if that’s the best way to describe what I want, but finding the language is part of the process. I want to have a Big Idea that becomes generally known to everyone to whom it is relevant. I want to invent a way of thinking about something.

It would be an understatement to say that such an accomplishment has always been a desire of mine. It’s more like it’s always been an expectation, a sense of destiny. I, like a startling percentage of my friends, have a fairly functional messianic complex. To this day I don’t know what is an “average” amount of feeling like one was born to do something extraordinary.

I remember being on vacation visiting family in the south when I was little, about six to eight. We went to church with my aunt, a laying on of hands, dancing in the aisles, slain by the spirit type of church, something very different from the solemn services to which I was accustomed. The preacher, who in my memory both looks and sounds a lot like John Edwards, looked out, from far away from me, on a crowd of hundreds, and explained that he had Messages from God to deliver to some in attendance. And I thought, “Oh, great, he’s going to talk to me.”

Sure enough, he came down from the podium, addressed a few people farther up in the crowd than me, then made eye contact from thirty yards away and made a beeline my direction. He told me what a special little girl I was, and how God wanted me to know that my life would be something amazing. He talked to my mom for a while, also, about how wonderful and challenging it must be to be entrusted with me. And the whole time I was pretty much thinking, “I know, I know!”

The point of this story is not to suggest that God told a preacher I was awesome, and that’s evidence that I am. Even at the time I understood the impact of being a first time attendee in the company of a new, reasonably well-off, community member. And turning cold reads into divine messages isn’t even particularly tricky. The point is simply how ridiculously easy the things he was saying were for me to believe at the time. There’s nothing anyone could have suggested that I would accomplish that I wouldn’t have thought possible. But I always thought The Thing would be obvious, eventually.

Flash forward a few decades, and I’ll admit that I both have a truly extraordinary life and that the bigness of my accomplishments (a combination of impact, fame and money, sort of) is happening slower than I would have guessed. And I’m starting to realize that there isn’t going to be one obvious thing that I’m “supposed” to do with my life.

It isn’t that I don’t have ideas. Wonderful, creative, potentially important, unique ideas. It’s amazing how many ideas there are out there, sometimes it would be so easy to think that someone already thought of everything. I often feel like I think of too many things, however, it’s overwhelming, and none of them get developed. So now I’m chewing over the notion of picking one, without worrying that it’s the best one I’ll ever have, and trying to turn it into whatever it can become.

So that’s fun. I can’t even figure out how to pick! Should I decide what I care about, then figure out the best idea I have related to the thing? Or do I figure out what my best idea is, and then imagine the most important impact? Is this engagement going to be business, in any part, or something I keep very separate from money? So many great questions to ponder, as any answers come in, I’ll let you know!

Sweets!
Kasha

I got the most interesting piece of e-mail in response to my call out for feedback this week. Well, more than one, but one that I’m about to address. What struck me about it was the way it essentially said, “I find this thing about you miserable, but I don’t think you should change.” And I agree, in large part, with everything he laid out.

It’s not surprising that N. knows what he’s talking about when it comes to me, he may have been listening to me longer than anyone else who is still active. I know him, too, there’s nothing that surprises me about what he had to say. The thing at the top of both of minds, as this reimagining of myself progresses, is the way I handle my correspondence. Or, for the most part, don’t handle my correspondence.

The disappointment N. expressed, with tremendous elegance, in the fact that I’m not responsive to direct communication is so understandable to me. It’s a conversation I have had with so many others, in my abrupt, quick lines way, of that natural wanting more of my direct control. Of course. It’s a desire I set up over and over again, which is an interesting tidbit to which I will return.

The second thing I agree with is that I need to accept that I can’t be as directly involved with individual Treasures as they, or I, might wish was possible. I thought that I could, up until recently, when I had a great e-mail system going that worked for about a month. I decided that if I would just do all of my e-mail once a week, with one response to everyone who wrote me in the course of the week. Which turns out to be a minimum of 60 people, even if I fudge and leave out replies to single-line mails obeying recording prompts.

At 60 people, for every one minute, on average, I spend in responses the entire process takes one hour. That includes reviewing all of the messages the individual sent for the week, writing a response, and transitioning between messages. Just reading someone’s set of letters thoughtfully, given the quality of mail I get, has been known to take 20 minutes or more. And even a very short question, such as “What recording should I listen to next?” requires some time to think through and compose a reply that feels satisfying. And when I write a full, interesting letter to anyone that takes me an hour or more by itself (I am fussy, my average blog post takes about an hour and half to write), I feel like I’m cheating everyone else, when I could spend that time on a public post or a new script.

I could make a full time job out of just answering my mail. Problems with that include the fact that such a plan fails to take into account making recordings and other pragmatic activities, not to mention my deep revulsion at the notion of approaching any aspect of my art as a “job”.

Part of the problem is the expectation that I create for myself, and therefore for others, that pre-dates my emergence onto the erotic hypnosis scene. As I imagined my model of interaction, I fantasized about having a solid list of 100 or so Treasures, all of whom I would know personally and who would buy every recording I released as soon as it was available. I thought the really great thing about me would be my warm, personal touch.

I am so grateful to my darling N., for all the ups and downs we’ve had over the years, for helping to shake up my thinking and realize it’s time to release naive expectations and really take a look at what will work. Having a ridiculous notion of what I think I could do if I put my mind to it is one of the biggest obstacles to doing what is really right.

My new plan for e-mail, which I really do enjoy within the available time, is controlled whimsy. I will continue to read and enjoy every message I get as I get it, of course. Some that particularly strike me, about 20 a week, I will transfer to my Response box, which I will clear out once a week. It feels like it could be a good balance, we’ll see how it goes.

It’s amazing to realize that I’m coming up on my third anniversary of being active in the erotic hypnosis community. For the most part, it’s such a pleasure to take stock of where I’ve come and what I’ve learned. On the other hand, I’ve been feeling a lot of bittersweet lately about the way Treasures come and go, for various reasons, or none that I ever hear at all. I love how often that when I do receive a farewell, some aspect of my work has touched a person in a way that has propelled them to another stage in life. As with any good healer, success can endanger my repeat business! And sometimes, not a word, and… it sucks, damnit, it makes me sad. (I am so looking at you, SC, I know you’re still reading!)

So, please, keep the commentary coming, I’m deep in a reflective mood and it’s clearly helping!

Sweets!
Kasha

Wow, this week I am revved up and loving the summer! I’ve been making last minute plans to spend a few days doing stuff at GenCon starting tomorrow. GenCon is a huge gaming convention that takes place in Indianapolis every year. And don’t think that just because it happens to be in Indianapolis it’s a dinky thing. It’s awesome, I’m just really lucky it happens an hour away from me.

And then, just weeks before heading to San Francisco, and I am so excited it’s ridiculous! I’ve been working on various gifts to bring, and my favorite so far is the Playa Clock:

Upon reflection, I’m not sure whey Thursday is represented by “Tr” instead of “Th”. I think it’s because I was originally considering using “R” instead, because that’s what IU did in class schedules when I was a student. Huh. Seriously, I only realized that was strange just now, after posting it. Oh, well! I’m going to be making more, I can consider and correct.

I realize, or at least I suspect, that the many readers to whom spoiling talk isn’t interesting find it boring at best, uncomfortable or distasteful at worst. That’s something I want to think about as I reconsider my approach to many things. But just one bit and I’ll get on with it, this is important! The size of shade cloth I’m going to need has changed, making it about a $200 expenditure. Now, if everyone is all crazy tapped out from summer fun and all the other stuff I’ve needed for Burning Man, it’s okay, there are emergency plans that involve options not quite as delicious as a perfectly sized piece of aluminet, but certainly do able. Unfortunately, I have to move on one plan or another soon, so if you are planning on getting involved with the shade cloth, please let me know!

Aaaaaand, an update on an old request you answered beautifully: Danny’s case was resolved today in a mostly satisfactory manor that is unlikely to screw up the rest of her life in a major way. Yay!!! Thanks so much for everyone who contributed to the cause, it really made a difference to many people in many ways, including your very, very pleased Goddess.

Okay, now the piece of information upon which I based this blog entries title. I am craving criticism, which I am not necessarily wonderful at taking. Actually, I can take the criticism just fine, what I don’t necessarily do well is disassociate it from the relationship easily afterward. If someone suggests I have been irresponsible, for example, I will be tremendously self-conscious in the future that they are thinking I am irresponsible. And for some of my Treasures to admit to any dislikes after years of adoration could feel mutually uncomfortable. But I want to hear it! Enter BetterMe.com, and anonymous feedback service. You can go there, create an account with minimal information, and use my e-mail address to send anything you’d like to say to me without have to take any responsibility for having said it!

Finally, I just want to take a moment to thank absolutely everyone who legally purchases my recordings. Whether you consider yourself more of a fan than a Treasure, more into This than to That, are casual or devout in how you approach your relationship to me and my hypnosis, I really appreciate every time you make the decision to trust that a session of mine has something of value to offer you. I have so many fun things to focus in my life, it’s important to marvel, from time to time, that people pay me to talk. Being a full-time artist and performer is an opportunity I am incredibly grateful for, and that would not be possible without out you. Thanks so much!

Sweets!
Kasha

As long promised, I have completed the Virtual Goddess Trilogy! The weekend got away from me a bit, but there’s still time to play in the very fun and successful Buy Kasha’s Recordings in July game. I just want to say that I am really in both an upswing and a time of recreating and renewal in how I do just about everything, and the pleasing obedience of my Treasures and the life I put into creating “Real Virtuality” have been tremendous parts of that process. Lots of love!

“Real Virtuality” is the final installment in my Virtual Goddess Trilogy. This set of sessions is an incredibly sincere experiment in energetic and psychic awakening channeled into a vibrant internal experience of your personal goddess. I have poured myself into each of these recordings, perhaps most so this last.

“Real Virtuality” assumes some training with “Virtual Goddess” and “Goddess to Virtual Goddess“, but you can begin with it no matter what level of results you have achieved. I recommend doing a review listen to the first two sessions before your first time with the third if it has been awhile.

If you are just starting with the Virtual Goddess training, I have made all three sessions available in one package for the generous rate of $75. This set is everything you need for ongoing training in awakening your Virtual Goddess, a living presence who can manage your sexuality on a 24/7 basis. Also, taken as a whole, it has the potential to be one of the best things I have ever done with my life. So I hope you like it!

Listen to a sample of “Real Virtuality”

Purchase “Real Virtuality” for $37.50

Purchase the Virtual Goddess Trilogy for $75

Even more than usual, I value your reports!

Sweets!
Kasha

P.S. I have updated my Burning Man list, paring it down to true essentials that are almost certainly the last things I have my heart set on in preparation. Given that everything but the shade cloth can be ordered as late as two weeks from now and have plenty of safe time, I’m feeling pretty secure. Having faith in my Good Treasures always, always pays off for me!

I’m so reinvigorated by the response to my call out for a binge of purchases before the end of the month! My Treasures never fail me. And, of course, there’s still time for more of you to join in the summer fun!

I’ve been working longer on “Real Virtuality” than I originally planned. It’s been a while since I’ve let myself turn loose in a certain way in the sessions I’ve been creating, and it’s been a pleasure to give this one the time it deserved. Scripts that have this much of my soul in them make me feel a little shy, but I’m confident you’ll find that this one is a truly powerful experience.

Of course, I can’t get away from the main purpose of any mid-week blog right now, keeping you up-to-date on my Burning Man plans! I’ve been gifted an amazing set of gear, a huge part of the growing intensity of my anticipation. I’m getting to the point where I’m pretty much always thinking about Burning Man, at least a little bit, with tremendous joy. This is thanks so much to my generous Treasures, both that I am going and that I’m not worrying about how to make everything work!

I have been dividing the needs I have to take into account into two categories, things that my Treasures can spoil me with ahead of time and things that will need to be pay-as-I-go when I’m on the ground. On the gifts front, I have recently brought my Amazon list up to 20 items that represent everything I can imagine being gifted over the next three weeks. Some things are very, very important to me, some seem terribly fun, but I could be okay without them. As the shipping deadline draws near I will trim down to anything that remains that I have the most longing for, and, if it can’t be helped, add last minute urgent items.

Right now fully half of the items cost less than $25, and lots of good options or combinations that would hit the $25 free shipping cutoff. Everything is $33 or less, except for the picnic table, which is hot but non-urgent, and one whopper of a custom cut, top of the line shade cloth, which is going to run about $250 shipped. My amazing friends will make it so that shade cloth covers a structure that protects both tent, making it possible to sleep hours later into the day, and a sizeable hang out area right outside my door. I like having the shade, it means people will come to me all day! This quality of shade cloth will also become part of an infrastructure that will continue to give me comfort for, quite possibly, decades. So, you have to ask yourself: do you want to get the details from me and order it yourself or send me the money and have me order it?

In terms of making sure I have plenty of cash for everything I need as I play, there are two things that come to mind that you can do. First, as mentioned, you can buy an “extra” recording (or more than one) in the next three days, as well as “Real Virtuality” this weekend. Second, I should have two customized recordings available in August, which are currently available starting at $500 each to those who make the first requests. Please inquire to me personally at goddesskasha@gmail.com.

Have you heard that this year Burning Man tickets sold out for the first time in its history? I’m so excited to be a part of this 60,000 person party!

Sweets!
Kasha

I have it on good authority that my life is quite strange and wonderful. I am always aggressively pursuing a life where the will to do everything I do generates from a genuine desire to act. I have a theory that a type of “enlightenment” can be found in a perfect state of only responding to one’s own desires. This process involves a delicate balance between eliminating undesirable activity and increasing the satisfaction I get from doing certain things that are to my benefit, as well as constant evaluation of the difference between what I want to do and what I think I should do.

I’ve been at this process for years now, and it blows my mind how well it works with a cadre of spoiling Treasures to make everything so lovely! I have yet to have a conversation with someone where I describe how my life works without getting a response that indicates I’m clearly doing something right, and I certainly agree. Sometimes, however, a lack of external reference points leaves me feeling undirected and unproductive. My long-term Treasures have surely observed a cyclical pattern in my activity and communications, rotating between times of flurried productivity and near absence that reflects what I observe about myself.

In late May and June I was rocking hardcore, leading up to putting a ton of energy into what was therefore an amazing 4th of July weekend. The recovery from that weekend has thrown me off of my game again, but I have a strategy for getting back on, and there are lots of ways you can help!

First of all, I am one month and one day from heading out for my Burning Man adventure! I will be flying into San Francisco, where I will have some time to do all my final prep before driving from there to Black Rock City with my playa pod. I want to continue to heap thanks and praise on my Treasures who have contributed to making that adventure possible, looking forward to it is sooo very exciting!

Frankly, I’m not worried about anything that happens after Burning Man, because I know that the week Does Things to people. One has to go in with a certain openness to being changed. So, really, it’s just a question of what I want to see happen in the next month. Let’s start with the rest of July: This calender month I would like to sell twice as many sessions as I would in an ordinary week. Only sales that happen in July will directly impact my travel budget in August, you see, and while my Treasures have pretty much covered my necessities already, I have some luxuries in mind!

My main part of making this happen is going to be releasing a new recording a week from today, which is by itself a tremendous start if my loyal Treasures are even ordinarily prompt in their purchases. The second big chunk of reaching this goal can be accomplished if all of my reading Treasures made a point of buying one or more recordings this week that you have been meaning to acquire at some point. That’s right, if you just do your part of indulging in one recording from my catalog now, when you’ve probably been looking for an excuse to get something new anyway, as well as the new one next weekend, it’s very easy to give me what I want.

If you’re still looking to do more towards the goal after buying as many as you can for yourself, I encourage tasteful attempts at spreading the word of me to others as well. I would love to see reviews posted, particularly on my Personality Programming and Treasure Training recordings, wherever appropriate. Please don’t be overbearing, but if you have a skill for putting in a useful word in the femdom erotic hypnosis community, this is a most pleasing time to do so for me!

A big boost in sales in response to my directions will not only make my Burn even more fun, but it will also totally reinvigorate my creative energy. Widespread simple obedience that lights up my instant gratification sensors is exactly what I need to reconnect with my Go-Go Juice. So, the best thing you can do for me right now is to do something nice for yourself and get more, more, more of me!

I’ll then take that boost in energy and spend the first three weeks of August creating two more recordings and finishing (fingers crossed) everything I need to do to launch my new website before I leave town. By the way, I am still creating one custom version of each new recording for prices starting at $500, but I have nixed the auction system. Send me an e-mail when you are interested in lining one up, and I’ll let you know when the next opportunity is available!

So, that makes everything very easy. Of course, you can keep spoiling me above and beyond your own self-indulgent purchases of my sessions, there are certainly many things on my Amazon lists I am still craving! Let me highlight that the Rubbermaid bin on my Material Lusts list is currently my highest want amongst only highly desirable items. And my Burning Man list, which ships straight to San Francisco, will be open for at least another three weeks. If you’re someone with whom I’ve worked out special spoiling methods not generally available, I’m sure you know what I want, and I know how much you want what I want…

You have your marching orders, Good Treasures, so do what you can to light me up and good things will happen all around!

Sweets!
Kasha

First, a brief update, then the goods…

I have been madly trying to recover in various ways ever since the 4th of July, and have barely sent a piece of e-mail out since that weekend. I am deeply considering how to continue to adapt a correspondence pattern that was very satisfying all around for a month, but has spiraled out of control in a busy time. In an effort to continue to prioritize getting out new recordings, I’ll continue to be out of touch for a few days, but a fresh attempt at being in contact will follow thereafter. While unapologetically taking care of myself, I want my loyal Treasures to know I’m thinking of you!

“Burning Arousal” is a crackling, sexual piece intended to infused your cock with a deep and irresistible arousal that will sensuously break down your will and erode all of your psychic defenses. The purpose of this arousal, as with all arousal, is to make you more helpless and vulnerable to the full acceptance of your complete surrender to my hypnotic control.

After establishing trance, I’ll introduce a new method of tantalizing you, invoking a sexy, feminine helper to massage you into compliance and touch you in shockingly intimate ways. Her drugging touch will leave a permanent imprint on your psychic flesh, which will lead to ever more pleasing behavior from my Good Treasure.

With both extensively relaxing deepening and edgy amounts of overt sexuality, this session will have you squirming the entire trance. A mood-setting musical background and sizzling subliminal loop will complete the job of sweeping you into hot, passionate hypnosis.

Sample here!

Sweets!
Kasha

Today I am still floating through recovery from the weekend’s delights. Happy, but almost entirely without capacity for… doing things. Which has somehow led to me thinking about Cuteness Farming as the ultimate profession.

Cuteness farming would be all about having lots of different types of adorable animals living in a space well set up for video. Whether it would be live web cams or monetizing the most adorable footage through a blog, or some combination thereof, I like the idea of having lots and lots of critters around as a business necessity.

Anyway, as the capability to bring high intensity sexiness to a new recording hasn’t come upon me yet, I put together a little something I have been meaning to offer. My five-part, now complete, Personality Programming series is now available for 33% off the individual recording prices of $187.50 to a package price of $125. In addition, you’ll have the option of downloading all five files in a compressed folder or one at a time, depending you the needs of your internet connection. The series consists of sessions Vulnerable, Aroused, Obedient, Obsessed, and Addicted, which are collectively designed to deeply penetrate your core systems and reprogram powerful aspects into your personality that please me very much.

Sweets!

Kasha

P.S.  My Amazon thank yous are updated now, such fun seeing how well my Treasures treat me!!!

I am a goddess totally lacking in structural integrity, simply a melted pool of rainbow-colored goo, quivering a little and beaming love into an adoring universe. The weekend was obliterating in the best possible ways, I feel like I stepped into an entirely other world of constant wonder, connection, play, and joy, and it’s disorienting to step back, changed and refreshed as I am. I think if everyone could come to one of my retreats the world would be a better place!

As lovely as that all is, the downside is that I am not yet capable of doing any of the things I need to do to catch up from the energy the party took. The first thing that’s going to go this week is e-mail responses. I’m so sad for my poor Treasures, I know how excited you get to hear from me, but it just isn’t possible this week. I’ll be focusing on getting some new recordings ready for the next week or so, and I know those excite you even more!

In addition, I haven’t caught up my Amazon “Purchased” list with thank you’s in a while, I will be doing that sometime before I go to bed late tonight. I’ve come to enjoy that process very much! Both my Burning Man list and my Material Lusts lists were updated last night with all the things most desirable to me right now. I will also be getting out final customization bids emails tonight, thanks so much to all for your interests!

My first priority, however, is cluing you in on something I meant to write about last week, up until the Last Minute destroyed my brain. Luckily, I haven’t totally deprived you of an opportunity, it seems there is still time to sign up.

My favorite relationship coach, as well as one of my all-time favorite people, Marcia Baczynski, is getting ready to launch a program designed to teach the Nuts and Bolts of relationships that I think is amazing. It’s a whole package that includes six teleclasses, two one-on-one calls with Marcia, and various support and integration tools for $297 that starts July 14th, in exactly one week. It’s an extraordinary deal, I can see how Marcia is trying to make the same benefits her private coaching clients experience more widely available, and I think it’s genius.

Now, Treasures, let’s be honest — the vast majority of you, when you write me about your in-person relationships, either do not have a romantic partner or are sad that you do not connect with your partner in some way. I very, very strongly recommend that you take this class. Every single one of you who does is going to be writing me saying, “wow, I hoped for some impact, but it blew my mind what that class did for me!”

Check out the website now!

Sweets!
Kasha

The funny thing to me about getting ready for the 4th of July is that I know how many British Treasures I have. To you guys I say, hey, over here we’re going to spend the weekend getting drunk and blowing stuff to celebrate breaking up with you! I myself will neither be drunk nor blow anything up, but I will in the spirit with my countrymen, if with an appropriately amused, corner-of-the-mouth smile at the displays of patriotism.

I will be hostessing an amazing party over the weekend in Chicago with a few dozen of my favorite freedom-lovers. The past 72 hours have been a whirlwind of preparation, but I feel well on the way to Winning the weekend.

I still have a custom available for when I come back from Chicago, but I will be mostly out of touch until Tuesday.

Sweets!
Kasha