Hello, Treasures, friends, and wayward internet travelers who were searching for something a little more strictly tantric — stick around, you might like my take on spirituality!
I have to admit, I’m in a goofy, excited kind of mood. But we’ll get to that, I think we actually need to start back with Christmas…
Christmas was great in every regard, and a huge blanket thank you to all the wonderful Treasures who sent gifts! I did get derailed on individual thank yous on things that came in closer to the 25th, and my notes have disappeared in the meantime, I deeply regret any human folly of mine that prevents you feeling as thanked as I want you to feel! Also, some gifts, notably the DVD player and the tux pants, never came with a name in the first place! Which is a thing, you may recall from the bread maker incident, that I find surreal. I sit and look at the DVD player now sometimes and just marvel at how a person could have a life such that she would own a a nice piece of equipment and not know who gave it.
That is to say, when I’m not being overwhelmed by the big ass TV located a few feet above. You should hear the variety of responses I get when I tell people about the TV. My mother was, I think, the funniest, because she got caught between the fact that she loves me and loves for good things to happen to me on one hand, and the fact that she thinks we’re all crazy (and I should be a lawyer) on the other. So what she said was “What’s wrong with people?”, but she giggled and sounded delighted when she did. You know… moms are complicated!
So, Christmas was great and I launched straight into New Year’s in San Francisco! Wow, what an amazing time! I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I come home from there more and more in love with the people and the place every time. And of all of the places in the world I have been there the past three trips because right now I don’t want to go anywhere else if I can go there instead. And this time I really feel like — I hate to say it, yet it has to be done — left my heart in San Francisco. More on that later, let’s talk about the past, present and future in proper order.
The structure of the trip was a few days in the City, a week at a vacation house with 12-17 friends, depending on the day, then a day in the city before back to Indiana, so I had plenty of time to settle in. Subjectively I feel like I was there for about five days longer than I actually was. The house was amazing and every single person I got to interact with there is someone I would trust to, I don’t know, get me out of jail. Every person there was someone I could have five different interesting conversations with at any given time. Beautiful, vibrant people playing hard. So good!
One of the things I love about the krewe there is that it is very easy to be fully a peer and fully a goddess. Groups that run efficiently can cover everyone’s necessities pretty easily, they benefit from goddesses because we always have the luxuries covered. It’s good for everyone to play to their strengths. I know who in that group I would follow without hesitation in the event of an emergency, I should think they know to stick with me if… ummm… we were in a bar and they wanted some free drinks, or something. The important thing to remember if that trade-off doesn’t seem “fair” is that useful people like to feel useful, therefore, the more decorative I am the more valuable they feel! See? Win/Win!
In short, I returned home feeling buzzy, energized, empowered, myself, motivated and loving life. Life was not loving me quite as much, since there was a lot to do on my return home, and inevitably I crashed in exhaustion for several days. Also, I’ve been fighting with the cold and the snow, I don’t have the wu wei of winter in me this year. There’s been a lot to process, and I’ve needed more quite time than I anticipated, thanks for not hassling me about it!
Where I am at now is that I have realized that, while I have excellent reasons for continuing to live in Indiana for the next few years, there is no reason I can’t live in San Francisco too, starting ASAP. As in, what am I doing here in the snow? So this comes down to the only thing I want for my birthday — to live in SF for the month of February.
Don’t worry, this won’t mean deserting you! I have a plan in place to continue to get recordings out throughout the trip, and some plans I have in the works will continue to move forward. In fact, you could see more content and other exciting opportunities while I’m out exploring the world!
The catch is, there has to be cash, and fast. The New Year’s trip was worth it, but very expensive, and getting caught up on that leaves me at the end of being able to juggle expenses into the future. I need to book a flight in about a week, and before that I need to have at least enough money set aside to buy the plane ticket and pay the minimum amount of expenses I’ll have for the month. On the upside, I have a great opportunity in crash space lined up that will be very affordable, and food/entertainment will be minimal.
I need to take this trip. Not need in a or I’ll die way, but need in a spoiled goddess way. To feel like I really can do what I want, when I want, and therefore feel the inspired glow that suits me best, I need to be able to do this trip. I know it’s early for my birthday, but I will be enjoying the gift on the day and for two weeks before and after! I also know it’s close to Christmas, but I have faith in you! Besides, I know how important it is to you that I get everything I really want, isn’t that right, Treasure?
Individual flirtations, persuasions and instructions forthcoming, write me at goddesskasha@gmail.com if you need more information on how to play!
Sweets!
Kasha